Cranky Business

Monday, June 27th, 2005 | I'm a bitch and I know it.

Currently in a rutty mood.

Somehow ended work on a negative note. Couldn’t do anything for one customer, and i think I let it get to me personally. It’s difficult for me to feel helpless.

This past weekend was a mix of fun and just plain more crankiness. In fact, i think my current mood is an extension of the weekend’s. I didn’t get the Sunday off for the parade, so I worked pretty much all weekend, and went out one night to hear Mark spin at Bazzaar. Got sadly drunk with only a few drinks, and as I walked home, I think I sent some messages to joey that should not have been sent. Something about myself being sick of the lack of affection on his part, and what I seem to know all along: he’s just not interested. So that was just the bummer feeling alcohol made me confront.

So my Pride weekend was a bit of a bust. It felt for me like any other weekend, overworked and exhausting.

Ooh, before I went to Bazzaar on Saturday night, I went with my new friend Herman to an Asian Express party at some house surprisingly (and scarily) close to where I lived. I found myself awkward amongst strangers, but it was somewhat what I had imagined. I promise I shall be more emotionally prepared next time. Again, I find a problem with an organization for Gay Asians being run by non-Asians. Intentions are great, but i had to keep away from the older white men present. Actually, I think I am finding myself in a sticky-rice mood. Laugh, those who got that.

Another bummer for the weekend was the announcement from my roommate that he would not be renewing the lease for the apartment. So this means that I am now looking for a new place to live.

More stress. Just what I needed. No wonder I’m cranky. I need a cigarette.