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Consequences

Monday, May 16th, 2005 | bitter queen

Not posting has become a habit. And habits are hard to break.

But all things are well, believe me. Or maybe not. I’ve been thinking about a lot of things recently, and all in all, I just really think I need to get my act together. It’s a thought I know I have been having for a really long time.

At the moment, I am out of school. In a fit of frustration, I gave up. Caught up in a ball of stress from both work and school, I cracked. Homework assignments went undone. Projects were not handed in. Of course I fulfilled my group project obligations, but I gave up on getting things done for school. I clearly was not happy in school here in Atlanta, and I guess subconsciously, I started whittling away at whatever drive I had left for school. I need a break from school. I wish this past year had never happpened, academically.

I don’t know if I will be going back to school in the Fall. Financially, I just won’t be able to afford it. I’m already kind of struggling as it is with my bills and working enough to afford my expenses. I’ll admit it’s my own fault in compulsive buys and horrible financial management, but I will make it work.

I need a break. A semester or two off might do me some good, help give me some breathing space. I know education is important, but at the moment, things aren’t peachy enough for me to entertain thoughts of school and the drone of college education.

In other news, I got invited to participate in a poetry reading in June in celebration of Pride. Details to follow, but I have to write a little bio for myself first.

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